okay, i'm feeling emotional now.

i don't know why i am feeling this way
it always got to do with 'BAND' stuffs.

i'm just puzzled,confused,sad,unhappy,crushed and many many whatever-words-you-described-it.
i doubt anybody in band wouldn't careless about what's going on(?)
yeah,they just come for practice, play music, (make a fool of themselves), and go home.

If they think joining band is just about playing music ,can kindly buzz off okay .
i didn't mean to break your heart

Like seriously,it's getting on my nerves already.
Just because i didn't voice out anything, doesn't mean that i don't give a damn about it.
YES OF COURSE I DO.
But!....................................
i just dont know.

I'm lost.
really lost.
ever since that incident, " you are overpowering them " , "We aren't happy the way the band is now"

i dare not to take the lead.
i dare not to instruct people.
i dare not to shine out.
i dare not to scold.
i dare not to order people around.
i dare not to boss people around.
i dare not to fight back for myself.
i dare not to voice out.

i just dare not to do everything....

Or maybe because i'm scared of losing.

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Losing my friends.


From what i observed and noticed, that majority of the NCO(s) are not doing their job most of the time.
And i can tell that the EXCO(s) isn't going to work out well.
(yes, even though we're all good friends.)
but working together?noo.

I don't feel respect.
They take me as if i'm a piece of junk.
Like whuat?
i detest disrespectful hooligan people.
(kill them all!)

I just wish to be a normal member.

( sery, you gotta be strong! think positive!)
(take it as a challenge!)



I'm sorry if i offend any of you readers.

This is what i've been wanting to say since that day i broke down.
But yet i have not finished what i wanted to say.
This is just one-quarter of it.






chilling at the cafe would be nice..