i don't want YEAR 2009 to come!
go awayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.




i am feeling very sad and scared now.
i want to do well for my N and O levels but i don't have the guts.
(it's useless even if you guys push me)
i don't want to graduate from BAND.
but i've been dying to graduate from this hell school!

And,

"aku mahu berkawan sama semua kawan sahabat ku untuk selamanya!"

alamak,my malay hancur seh.



Anyways, today was soooooooooo dissappointing and stressful.

askldbwqoieda.





who's going siloso beach party tomorrow for countdown?

The best xmas gift i get this year,
Fever and Severe Headaches



yay me.



i can't sleep for the entire night ):


Happy christmas!
Hoho-

i'm falling sick on christmas eve.
Oh great.

):

i'm speechless.
i'm soft hearted.
i don't have a brightest brain.




but,
i am still standing strong.

"nurseryhanabintejamali is a sad girl ): "







hahaha.

And nobody gives a damn what is it like to be in my shoes.
I am not what you might think okay.


It has always been the same question.
I feel annoyed.
-

"I dropped my coins on the floor,trying to pick it up by myself but i failed."

-

Yesterday was SP's last concert for Mr Leonard Tan.
It was kind of a farewell cum graduating concert for them.

And their music was MARVELOUS! My jaw dropped like almost every song they played.
Well,what do you expect?Their gold bands.
Professional players!

Their music inspires me ALOT. One day i would definately want to have the same standard as them or beyond that. (especially the TRUMPETS!)

Come to think of it,i hope JVCB could have that standard as theirs!(In my dreams)
Those bandmates who went, i'm sure they realised what is music all about *smiles*

WORTH MY TWELVE BUCKS! :D

Anyway, yessssssss. You can see that i looked different yesterday,the way i dressed. Surprised?hahahah.
Why can't i have a different outfit?



(I WANT PICTURESSSSSSS!)

And oh,something has been bugging me since last night :/

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I FEEL BORED.
i can't even sleep last night.
I got a screamt in my ear this morning from Felyna asking me about today was there a need to go back to school? And another from my little kiddy junior,Zu Hao. I think he's angry with me bcos i'd forgotten all about it. CRAPPPPPSHIT.

i want to go back to sleep.
i only had 6 hours of sleeping.
and i'm still awake?
i'm going to watch Twilight night shows later with my sister and cousins. i wonder whether it'll be awkward or not.
i feel like going out today.
i feel different yesterday when you're around.

Let the rain fall down

And wake my dreams
Let it wash away
My sanity
'Cause I wanna feel the thunder
I wanna scream
Let the rain fall down
I'm coming clean, I'm coming clean

Huh,just WHAT?
"living in a frustration & annoying life!
get away from my head."



yes,my dreamland.
NYC




Mood: Having a rough time..
goose wimp.

(i ain't replying any of my messages since two days ago.)

(i haven't been talking to people except my sister,my mom,my dad,my brother,my second brother and buddy girl whom-i-love-her-so-much--in-which-when-i-was-feeling-so-down-and-she-is-always-there-for-me and my late night sms chat mate!)

i just need some time alone.
please don't bother me,okay.

Okay,seriously i lost my mood. But this friendly guitarist ongoing famous star soul approached me in MSN and made me smile. Maybe it's been awhile since we talked yeah?

Anyways,I'm helping Afiq to promote his band to you guys to support them!
Afiq says if one day he gets famous he'll bring me to somewhere.
HAHAHA.



Vote VIVA to see us on tv! We want your support.
To know more about us go to www.myspace.com/vivaprofile.
To vote us go to http://livenloaded.mediacorptv.sg/artistsuploaded.htm

And oh,The Sallys on the vote too!
All the best to both bands!

Hello!
i don't feel like blogging.
so i will let my blog rot here and dieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

i am feeling tired.
i am worried.
i am scared.
i am very worried.
i am overly excited.
i am really very worried.

this sentence shaked me, "If there are people hating you,means you are putting in your effort."

freaking out here!
BUT i will motivate them.(still figuring out)
And we'll achieve it!

):

i really can't imagine what will we be like after if that happens.

And oh,i fell in love with gibson's guitar strings :D

Okay,seriously this is like my 3rd time pressing the new post button.
i always wanted to blog about something. But my mind just went white.

Anyway,i'm listening to Beethoven's Moonlight Sonata 3rd Movement. The song is crazy yet beautiful. I wish to have that skill.



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i want to play piano.
i want to have a grand piano but i don't have the skill to play
):


I want to take good pictures.
But my photography skill has somewhat,is fading away.
(okay,it's getting annoying. People keep on asking me about tmr's practice)







Today is quite not a good day.
Started off with mass dance in the morning. The spirit wasn't there. Even I,myself don't feel like dancing already.
(gosh,my phone vibrates non-stop)

And the attendance is one very big disappointment.
(Azlin,stay strong!)

And of course,Kendra Estelle Azlin were there. If not,probably i'll be bored to death and emo-ing at one corner -.-
HAHAHAH.

OH! Jurong Point have been extended! And it's opening tomorrow.
And there's STARBUCK COFFEE!
WOOOOOOOOOOOO.
happyhappyhappy.

Brats.
Actually i'm in a lousy/disappointed/sad mood(?)
I wanted to pour all my feelings here about today.
Because today had been the most uh.. i don't know how to describe my feelings.
But anyway,i'm trying to cheer myself up.
wuahah.

There's band practice tomorrow.
Oh,but we're not having practice. We're having sports & games day.
Which means=FREEDOM.
But for me no,no,no freedom D:

okay talking about band makes me sad.

who is the person whom i always pour all my feelings to?
where are you when i need you the most?
what i need now,is YOU.
(heck,i don't even know who am i referring to)

YI XIU'S COMING BACK TOMORROW!
VANIA'S COMING BACK LIKE IN TEN DAYS TIME!
YAY-NESS.


*
i forgot to mention this;
I GOT FREE NIGHT SHOW TICKETS TO TWILIGHT MOVIE ON 18 DECEMBER
jealous?:D
HAHAHAH.

GUESS WHAT I WATCHED JUST NOW!?


TWILIGHT!
*Hurray!*


hahahahahahahhahahah.

i know it's a spoiler thing to watch before the REAL thing comes in cinema.
but who cares?i was so eager to watch.
:P

Well,anyways i'm still gonna watch it in cinema!
*jumps around*

EDWARD CULLEN IS SO HOTzxxzxz!
(i wish to have a kind of guy like his character)



okay,bye.

I was so bored,and so i went on youtube-ing.

And man,i love this guy alooooooooooot!
He's so cool x)

this song makes me happy :D


Happy Christmas! (:

Hong Kong streets

I was screaming my lungs out in the house just now..
i seriously have no idea why i did that
-

I felt that i am taking TWO major jobs in a row now.

I is SAD ):
i think nobody knows how i really feel..



ahhh,what bad background view.


wooo!looked at us




how excited they looked.


\m/

And oh,bon voyage Yi Xiu!
get me something okay?
hahah,have a safe flight.

My brain is empty.
it won't function properly.

who are they gonna be there for me?
sometimes i really wonder if whether am i doing things for my own sake?
or is it am i being too nice with them?

i don't know.
unsolved puzzle.

I'm back from Hong Kong people!
*Screams*

Okay,time flies really fast. It's like a blink of an eye and the trip was already over.

Anyhow,shall i elaborate more about the trip?

First Day

I tell you guys,the first day sucked like hell.
I died on the first day.
Before boarding the plane i was like telling people how i was feeling nervous and scared and frightened and....loads and loads of anything i could think of about the trip.

I was super scared that the trip will turn out unsuccessful.
And yes,i was alone. Handling the band all by myself. And i felt damn sad okay.
Scoldings from the adults which i don't think it will worked on me.

I got so emotional til the end of second day(no,i'm not emo dumbass)

First day, did nothing. Just went touring the whole day............ Ah,i can't remember.


Moving on....

Second Day

What's on the second day?
OH RIGHT.
Breakfast at Delifrance-eeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! (:
Sectionals workshop with hong-kee tutors.
He's one damn person man.
i dislike him a lot.
But of course i learnt something from him.

Small opening and blow freely

And i heard from Mrs Chia that he's one of the best trumpeter from dunno-what symphony band. HAHAH
I was expecting him to play extremely nice like Allen Vizzutti but he disappoint me.
Aw,too bad.

We had combined in the afternoon with the Brass section only.
Ayaaa,nothing much happend about workshop.
Somehow,it's still quite useful.

We went to Ladies Street,Night Market in the late afternoon.
Oh, by the way the streets there look damn nice and bright okay!
especially all those lightings around during the night.
like as if we were in New York city! :D
my dreamland,HAHAH.

Hong Kong night market is like Singapore's pasar-malam.
And in hong kong, we could bargain until like crazy.
Mrs Chee is the QUEEN man.
She bargain til half price. like wtf?!
so cool okay.
I should have ask her to bargain for me Bape hoodie.

OH,myself and jasmine got cheated for 250HKD.
The actual price was 290 HKD. And we bargain til 250HKD. Pathetic price man.
So not worth it. We could actually bought it in S'pore.
that's like so sad ah ):
Money-face -.-

I HATE TO BARGAIN!!!
i gave up in the end.

We had 4 hours to shop around but in the end we bought so little stuffs.
(there was nothing nice to buy actually)

*some text deleted*

Third Day

DISNEYLAND!
*run around & screams*

woots!woots.

Before we get into disneyland,i wanted to tell you guys this.

OUR BREAKFAST SUCKED LIKE !@$#^!&*
all the muslims people were unhappy about the servings.
We went into a chinese restaurant.
with no halal certificate.
And we ate one pineapple buns for breakfast.

Whereas on the third day was our VERY BIG day for us.
We're performing in Disneyland ground like HELLO?!!?!!
We need ENERGY!
okay,i shut up.

Anyhow,WE ACTUALLY PERFORMED IN DISNEYLAND!
HOW GREAT IS THAT?!??!
hahahahahah.

happyhappyhappy.
but noo,i was in no mood because i got lectured by Mrs Chee.
That part private, i can't tell.

D-i-s-n-e-y-l-a-n-d
i actually got scolded by my band instructor.
great....... spoiled the fun.
In fact,i got scolded like almost all the 5 days.

And i love Yi Xiu alot. She was the only one who is sososo concerned and worried about me during the trip.
She is always there for me when i need a shoulder to lie on.
And she even willing to sacrifice her time for me that day at Disneyland when i was told i was grounded by Mrs Chee.

THANK YOUUUUUUUU!
i love you more than ever.
(HAHAH.)

i really feel so touched by you.
*smiles widely*

In the end, i wasn't grounded. Mrs Chee let me off and have fun.
Anyhow, i went off with my group and French horn section.

We didn't take all the rides. We spent most of our time by camwhoring and explore the whole disneyland and window shopping! :D

"Mummy! Daddy! Daughters!"
hahahah.
still can't forget the joke.

I love Space Mountain! The roller coaster ride! super extremely fast.
It's in the dark which lead us to nowhere.
I sat with Jun Wern. I screamt all the way till the ride ends.
Sorry boy. i was so crazy screaming my lungs out.
HAHAH. :D

& my throat hurts.

I love Buzz Light year too! It's a some kind of shooting game.
We had to sit on a cable and use a gun to shoot.
The cable goes around and we spinned the cable it made us dizzy.
And shoot!shoot! the enemy.

So fun,and jasmine is so cute with her fully colours bape hoodie.
:D

I wished to live in Disneyland.

Oh, and their fireworks was FABULOUS!
The most nicest fireworks i had ever seen.

If only i could watch it with someone special.

And i forgot to mention that i met Xian Qin from 34th NCO camp in Disneyland TWO TIMES!
HAHAH.
what a small world.

Of all places,DISNEYLAND.
cooliest.

*some deleted text*

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Fourth Day

In the morning,we visited a museum.
And blabla.

Afternoon School band exchange with the top band in hong kong.
Alot of things happend.
I was pissed.

okay,ended.

*some text deleted*

Fifth Day

LAST DAY!

The adults tried to fooled us by saying that we're not going to Ocean Park where all the thrilling rides.
But nopeeeeeee.
Anyway,yeah. It was fun.
Cable car,Roller Coaster,The Abyss etc.
*Two Thumbs Up*
Sad to say we only had 2 hours.

Unlike Disneyland , we had the whole day for ourselves :D

And we went shopping at a Factory Outlet.
Boring.
Didn't really buy anything.

That's the end.
lazy elaborate already.


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Anyway, i just wanted to say thanks guys for supporting me all the way.
I really appreciated it.
Even though i get all the scoldings , you guys still supported me.

I'm so touched.
And i hereby to say that This trip was SUCCESSFUL!
*applause*

I was very disappointed with my excos.
i don't know what happend to you guys.
but nevermind it's okay.

i still managed to survived in this trip with the band support.

P.S AINI I WANT PICTURES!
hahaha :D