I don't know what was wrong with me today


i totally shut myself for today's practice.
i wasn't in the mood to talk to anyone,
i talked,but not really into that conversation.

i kept myself occupied by reading this book called , "New Moon"
even zany who was sitting next to me 'joined' to read on the same book that i was reading.
haha.

i know i'm not suppose to read during practice or whatever.
I JUST DON'T KNOW WHY.

Today's practice really wakes me up under Wen xiang.
We sounded so much better and lively and more musicality.
i felt some goose bumps on my arms.

and i have to agree that she totally crushed our interests.
who agrees with me?


then suddenly.................................
i feel so empty.

i pretend that i don't even care about anything that's happening now.
all my efforts have been wasted.

i told myself that i don't want to do anything for today.
i just feel like being left alone by myself.





whyyyyyyyyyy?
whyyyyyyyy?

WHYYYYYY?!

i am so frustrated with myself when i keep thinking over and over again.
this sucks.

My mind strucked when Glenn asked what was on my mind?
i hadn't had a clue what was i thinking.
i just blurted out what hit me,unknowingly.


My mind was racing.
I couldn't think of anything.


I left band not the usual time i always do,
avoiding from people whom i know so well looking for me,
reading the book is an excuse while i'm alone.

because i wanted to be alone.

And for the fact that i told Yi Xiu was not an excuse of being alone.
i had something to do,really.
i'm still truthful to you (:

I dragged my feet to the doorstep,unwillingly to open the door,i dropped my keys..
i stared at the keys for 3 seconds and picked it up.

*stopped typing*

i don't know why i don't feel like spitting any words to anyone.
only those whom i'm comfortable with talking to.



AHHHH, i love band.
i can't stop pretending already.

i love playing music.
i will die if i stop playing music.
hohoho-




"You've got to break the rules if you're chasing your dreams,right?"


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