November rain

i never thought it would be so complicated back then-

when you want things the way you want it to be,you will get it eventually.

But things could get complicated when you don't take it seriously or when you don't put your fullest effort or when you don't make decisions responsibly or when you don't have commitment or when you don't set a goal/target for yourself or when you don't have the basics or ............
it could have many reasons..

Thinking back of what i have done, i seriously find it a very ridiculous mistake i'd made. I could never ever forget that. The scene just keep on replaying on my mind again and again, the moment i closed my eyes. It just too horrible for me to think back. It became my nightmare for every night.

And now, I'm afraid to face reality. I tend to avoid it whenever i can. But i know, i can't escape every time. I'll have to face it no matter what.

I don't cry. But my heart is crying deeply. (wow,i can't believe i just said that :D)




i don't know.
i don't know.
i don't know.
i don't know.
i don't know.
i don't know.
i don't know.
i don't know.



Probably i'm just thinking too much.
AND NO,i am NOT emo.
I am just expressing.
whatever you heck fellas think of me.
just shut up.
& goodbye.

oh drats! i screwed my art. And tomorrow's chemistry paper. gotta get distinction! MUGGGG!

p.s : thanks asyiqin for everything even though you don't read my blog (: